Ahead of the April 10 episode, Good Housekeeping has an exclusive clip featuring Young Ian Murray (John Bell) and Rachel Hunter (Izzy Meikle-Small).

Viewers will see Young Ian confront his romantic past in an emotional, difficult conversation with Rachel.

This story contains spoilers from Outlander season 8.

With Outlander nearing its end on TV, it’s time for Young Ian Murray (John Bell) to take a look at his past.

As the final episodes of the hit drama roll out every Friday night on Starz, it’s hard to think of a time we won’t get more of Fraser’s Ridge. And while fans know Young Ian is building a life with wife Rachel Hunter (Izzy Meikle-Small) and their son, he still holds a lot back about his previous loves—particularly his first wife, a Mohawk woman named Wakyo’teyehsnonhsa, a.k.a. Emily (Morgan Holmstrom).

Well, it looks like the past is coming to light. Good Housekeeping has an exclusive clip previewing what’s to come in the April 10 episode, titled “Blessed Are the Merciful.” As viewers see Young Ian and Rachel looking for shelter along the river, Young Ian starts sharing pieces of his life before meeting Rachel. Rachel assures him it’s OK for him to mourn his relationship with Emily in front of her.Video poster

Fans may remember that Young Ian became a part of the Mohawk tribe in season 4, in exchange for Roger MacKenzie’s (Richard Rankin) release from being kidnapped. Two seasons later, in season 6, viewers learned Young Ian had met and married Emily, but it came with the tragedy of multiple miscarriages. He eventually left Emily so she could marry Young Ian’s best friend, Sun Elk, and she eventually had a child of her own.

Although it’s been some time since then, Young Ian admits to Rachel that Emily does creep into his mind now and then. But as Rachel comforts her husband, she tells him it makes sense that he’d think of his first true love.

“She was beautiful, aye,” Young Ian added. “I think of her, now and then. Not often.”

“Why should thee not think of her?” Rachel responded. “She was the mother of thy children. A woman who shared thy bed, thy body, and a bit of thy soul, did she not?”